FM Static - Tonight

Thanks for sending me this song Jamie. It may have been purely coincidence but you have no idea what it means to me right now.

I looked up the lyrics and discovered just how much it applies.

I cried.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NbFlHd1GP1w

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight


The song is about the artist's brother passing away when they were children, and about him asking God for closure.

It serves as a timely and welcomed reminder to me that God cares.

But closure?

I don't think I'm ready for that yet.

Give me some time.



There is no haste in grief.

Fabric

So many strings of memories we had,
So many strings we wove to make something beautiful.
But in the end the object of beauty,
Became an incomplete solace.

Photoshop

I've been doing some photoshopping lately to take my mind off things.

As some of you know, I enjoy either coming up with my own graphics from scratch, or taking photo manipulation to the extreme. You can click on the pictures for the high resolutions.

Scanline text

I don't think people can truly appreciate photo manipulation without having seen the base picture.

Base

Manipulation

Special thanks to Jamie for letting me use your picture.

Girls, don't faint.

Teardrops from Heaven

Not a single day has passed without my thoughts lingering upon the times we had together.

Not a single day can pass without me pondering upon this final outcome.

I've oftentimes wondered if things would be different if I had invited you to stay over.

I've often wondered if you'd still be here had I called and asked you to hang out.

Too often I've wondered why God saw fit to stir up a whirlwind in the midst of a summer day.

I thought that out of all the things that would prevail while everything else turned to dust,

Our friendship would last the longest amongst them all.

But then without a reason, everything changed.

Without a reason, a summer day turned to a stormy brood,

And a mix of metal and glass flew around a corner faster than the eye could see.

But in that instant was all that you were, are, could be... Was.

And then the rain fell down only to glance off your gravestone.


You'll always be remembered for the summer times.

I guess I'll see you in heaven.

So rest in peace, Kyle.

I love you buddy.

Script

I've been lying.

I've had emotions pent up inside of me which I haven't shown.

I've been hurting and I haven't been able to come to terms with it yet.

So I've put on a happy facade to fool the world.


Pretend, and soon enough the world will pretend along with you.

Continue to pretend, and the world will forget that they are pretending.

But though you can pretend all you want,

You can never truly forget the fact that it's only an act.


I have to find a way to deal with this.

I must.

Mt. Tapor

We climbed Mt. Tapor again, Yong Yi, Daniel, Caleb and I.

I dearly hope that my sunburn wont be as bad as last time's.

A view of the lake

My doggy pal whom we met near the top, and whom outpaced us on the way down.

Anyways it was a pretty fun day, and both breakfast and lunch were fast food. So much for my resolve to eat healthily.

Of Technology and Architecture

I managed to catch but the meekest of winks in regard to my sleep last night.

And tomorrow morning, I'm going hiking.

My excuse?

I was just too engrossed in the architectural possibilities presented by a combination of translucent concrete blocks, electrochromic glass displays, and color changing concrete.

Imagine separating the hall and the dining room with translucent concrete, seeing every shadow cast upon the other side of the wall.

Imagine the current time displayed IN your bare unpainted wall.

Imagine a skylight that changes opacity at your very whim.

Yes, I'm planning my dream home for the eventuality that I become a billionaire.

And then there were my wild imaginings and hopes for the development of a transparent color LCD screen. Imagine the following:

*technical knowledge required*

>Unobstructed view of garden
>Suspended particle device turns near black
>Polymer dispersed liquid crystal device turns hazy white in front of SPD screen
>PDLC is lit from the sides to provide backlight
>Color LCD screen turns on

end *technical knowledge required*

Stringed together in other words?

An apparently clear window, at the flick of a button, turns opaque, then lights up to be a giant embedded computer/television screen. Or if you wanted, by an utterance from your mouth you could change the view of your boring garden into a magnificent lakeside landscape. Combined with the proper air freshener I'm sure you'll be fooled in no time. How awesome would that be?!

I'm not pulling your leg. This isn't science fiction, though there is one missing puzzle piece which is the see through color LCD display.

The rest is already reality. (For a certain price of course)

I really hope that in the years to come they'll develop technology like this, or anything similar in fashion, rather than have them stay in my intangible day dreams.